Some days are just a day of tears…
Tears of gratitude for a life of blessings, health, love.
Tears of heartbreak over goodbyes that should never have to be spoken.
Tears of anger, fueled by the injustice of a cruel world bent on self-service.
Tears of sorrow for friends walking valleys through which I cannot sojourn.
Tears of fear…of wondering, waiting, not knowing. What if?
They have been there for awhile; brimming just beneath the surface, these glimmering, tangible expressions of emotions felt so profoundly in the core of the soul words only seem to mock the depth of it all. But they have been fought; held back; reigned in.
Releasing them would mean giving in to the intensity of reality. Really feeling. So there they sit, silently building, patiently biding away the time.
Photo by ImageLovers
But today…
The sun streams in warming my back. In the next room the baby snores contentedly in his dream world of dragons and swords. The house itself seems to holds its breath, braced and ready for the tidal wave.
So in the silence, bathed in the golden light of the spring sunshine, I relinquish control. The tears fall.
All the joy, fear, sorrow, anger, gratitude, empathy, sympathy, anxiety mingle and trickle slowly down rouge-painted cheeks. One by one they crawl, each a wordless prayer.
Faster now they stream no longer distinguishable one from the other – just like the emotions that have beckoned them come.
I am grateful for the solitude, for if asked Why I know there would not be an answer. Except for possibly one word: everything.
This day. This beautiful, bright, gentle spring day is my day of tears.
I’m linking up with Growing Home, The Better Mom, Miss Elaine-ous Life, Write It, Girl, Some Girl’s Website
Comments 19
This is beautiful…and hits a heart-place with me.
And I’m thankful you found that time for a release without having to answer the “whys”…
Sometimes you just need that…
Love,
K
Author
Thank you, Kara. Your words mean more than you know. <3
Sweet friend . . . this week, for me, has been a mixture of both kinds of days. Beautiful gratitude has met bloated tears. This juxtaposition is life, is it not?
Author
(((hugs)))
Beautiful post and sometimes we need to release these “wordless prayers” and when we do, perspective follows shortly behind. So glad you found those moments of quiet to let them go. Just gorgeous words – really.
Author
Thank you so much! A weight was definitely lifted afterwards. 🙂
What beautiful words. Linking up from teach me linky. Have a lovely day.
Nina
Author
Thank you, Nina!
coming over from write it girl…
yes, sometimes we just need to let the tears flow. they cleanse, true? beautifully written, thank you.
Author
Thank you, Daniele!
Beautiful, beautiful words that describe my prayers lately as well!
Blessings to you!
Jessica
Author
Thank you so much! It’s nice to know others do it, too. 🙂
Beautiful! I especially like this line: All the joy, fear, sorrow, anger, gratitude, empathy, sympathy, anxiety mingle and trickle slowly down rouge-painted cheeks. One by one they crawl, each a wordless prayer.
Thanks for sharing such beautiful truth in poetry.
Author
Thank you, Gail. Your words mean a lot to me!
They way you wrote about the tears, so amazing. I would say I’m sorry but it sounds like you had a “good” cry, you know a cathartic one. Much love…
p.s. you should also link up with “Just Write” here: http://extraordinary-ordinary.net/2012/03/26/just-write-28/
Author
Thank you so much, Elaine! Yes, for the most part it was a good cry. 🙂
“Tears of fear…of wondering, waiting, not knowing. What if?” Oh yes, I can relate! Knowing and trusting that God’s plan is best, and yet, the fear that His plan might not be what I’m praying for. Thank you for sharing.
Stopped over from Write It, Girl.
Blessings,
Laura
Author
Thank you, Laura! There was/is a lot going on here and so many emotions swirling!!
Pingback: Sunrise of the Soul « thisgalsjourney