The Race of My Heart

I nun-ing, Ma-ma….I na fass-iss!

“You are the fastest! Go!!”

I watch you run as fast as your pudgy little feet will take you, full cheeks bouncing in ecstasy at the freedom you have to just run; jump; be.

You climb on the chairs, color a picture, stacks blocks, and “read” books. Oh, the books.

I have them all memorized by now. Just like every nook and cranny of your porcelain face, pudgy-dimpled hands, wiggly toes. We read them over and over and over again. And then once more. You can find the animals and sing their songs. Your tiny fingers finding every minute detail on every page. We close the book only to start again.

You’re racing ahead, little man and I do my best to run alongside you. But a piece of my heart just can’t help but break at the speed of your childhood. Inside I’m stomping on the proverbial brake pedal of life, of your growing, and yet you plow on through undaunted.

Now, on the eve of your second birthday I sit both in awe and muted grief. I’m in awe of the amazing heart already being cultivated in your spirit. In awe of the leaps and bounds with which you grow and change day by day. Minute by minute. Simultaneously grieving the babyhood that is gone; the infancy that has flown at lightning speed, just like your sisters’ did.

Yet the  joy far outweighs the sorrow and so I run with you and cheer and squeal and revel in the delight that is you, and your delight of this world.

This is part of Five Minute Friday with the Fabulous Lisa-Jo Baker. This week’s theme was RACE.
I’ve also linked up with Time Warp Wife, Growing Home

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  1. great post, yes it goes by too fast but so amazing watching them grow. I love that my boy is three and such a cute littel man, but I do miss his babyhood.

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      Thank you, Karen! Yes, it’s SO much fun to watch, especially now that he can play WITH his sisters, not just near them. And there are plenty of things I don’t miss about babyhood, too. Ha!!

  2. If you haven’t heard Taylor Swift’s “Never Grow Up”… it is amazing… Gets me every time. Reminds me to slow down and cherish every moment with my little ones.

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  3. What a cutie! Happy birthday wishes to the little guy. They do love to run, don’t they? As soon as they figure out walking can be done much faster life becomes a race. Enjoy it all and start looking for running shoes to keep up.

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  4. This was beautifully written and so descriptive–I felt like I was right there in the room too!

    Especially loved this: “Yet the joy far outweighs the sorrow and so I run with you and cheer and squeal and revel in the delight that is you, and your delight of this world.”

    Thank you for sharing from your heart…it blessed mine!

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